First of all, I would like to say that I’m just glad that this long hard week is finally over. I’m embracing and looking forward to my weekends like a happy little boy that has just received candies from Santa, ready to be easily satisfied with any goodness that God can throw at my life. Intending to go for a good run tomorrow morning when I wake up, then it’s breakfast? Should I run to drive 6 to buy some dou jiang you tiao? Haven’t been eating that for breakfast for quite sometime man, wahhh suddenly have this huge craving for You Tiao Da Wang. *drools* (-_-;)

So, I actually came across this article sometime ago, and I found it pretty meaningful. It’s titled “Friendship is not a Hotel”, written by a local person. I can’t remember where I first saw this but it seems to be taken off the local newspaper. So anyway here’s an extract of the article.

You can’t just check out of a friendship when you enter into a relationship.

She used to be my classmate.

We shared the same hobbies, borrowed each other’s lecture notes and had long telephone conversations.

All that changed when she had a boyfriend. She would cancel our appointments whenever he asked her out.

The first time it happened, I shrugged it off and even squealed in excitement for her.

The second time it happened, I was annoyed but only remarked casually that I seemed to be on her B-list of friends.

The third time it happened, I swore never to ask her out again.

She did not make amends. I guess the growing distance between friends can’t be felt when one seems joined at the hip with one’s partner and have him as a companion for all of one’s activities. Then, they broke up. She called me in tears at midnight and I consoled her.

All was forgiven. It felt good to put aside petty misgivings and stand steadfastly by a friend in times of adversity. Isn’t that what friends are for?

Our friendship resumed. But when she found another man, suddenly, her weekends were reserved again. Whenever I called her, she sounded preoccupied and anxious to get off the phone. Later, she became completely incommunicado.

A year later, I got a call from her; she was distraught. She told me her boyfriend had dumped her and asked that we meet. I declined and ignored her subsequent calls.

I did not say what I was thinking: ‘My friendship is not a hotel. You don’t walk in and out, as and when you wish.’

No matter how head over heels in love I may be - and no matter how a man’s charm may make my hormones rage - it never gets to the point where he takes priority over my close friends.

It’s a no-brainer. My friends have proven their mettle and stuck with me through thick and thin, while he has merely entered the picture with goodness-knows-what intentions.

Even if I were married, being with my husband would still not override time spent with my close friends. I know of people who stop seeing certain friends or resort to seeing them on the sly just because their spouses do not approve of them doing so.

A spouse will never be able to support one’s emotional needs entirely and he or she has to understand that some of these needs will have to be met outside, by friends.

Friendship brings other problems. As my social circle widens, I find it increasingly difficult to discern who my real friends and fair weather ones are.

I often feel I am invited to parties and sought after as a friend for no other reason than that I am a journalist and can, hopefully, be a means to free publicity.

The more people I know, the lonelier I feel. I am a sentimental soul who prefers the comfort of old friendships which hark back to a time when I was simply Janice, minus the fancy title and trappings.

This is why I am not entirely sure that I did the right thing by quitting that friendship. Was I too demanding? Should I have given her a second chance?

After all, we really got along and it was not like she committed something treacherous like cheating me of my money, betraying a secret or stealing my boyfriend.

Still, I have had enough of being taken for granted. Being single and available does not mean my time is any less valuable than hers.

When it is consistently a case of one person giving and the other person taking, it is time to take stock of the friendship and, perhaps, call it quits.

Like courtship - or even more so - friendship requires time, effort and reciprocity.

While courting parties can demand commitment of each other directly, the expectations in a friendship are usually implicit, subtle and unsaid, and as a result, more prone to neglect.

You may love your friends very much, but if they don’t hear from you for an extended period of time, it’s only human nature that they wonder just how much you really care about them.

As the late civil rights leader Martin Luther King Jr said: ‘In the end, we remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.’

Don’t misunderstand me. Couples who are newly in love are naturally consumed by each other to the exclusion of everything - and everyone - else. I don’t begrudge that. I certainly didn’t expect my friend to pay as much attention to me as she did when she was single.

I also accept that when life exerts its pressures and one’s career picks up pace, some friendships fade away. But I would be happy to rekindle such friendships.

What I bristle at is being relegated to a nobody when romance calls and then being treated like some sort of stop-gap measure when it ends.

So let’s take some time out this week to have a drink with a dear old friend, say ‘How are you?’ and be sincerely interested in finding out how they are.

I have never been so busy or so popular to the extent that I have no time for an old friend.

Nor, I pray, will I ever be so.

My take on this issue? Exactly the same sentiments as the original writer. I haven’t read such a good article from a local writer in a long time and she has totally spoke my mind about how I felt about friendships. And yes, I sometimes do feel suffocated too, when I seemingly have alot of friends, yet I do not really know which ones are my true friends. Except for a few close ones, who had never once failed me in life, but that’s like what, only one or two out of my whole social circle?

As much as I would like to meet new people in my life, with either the same interests as me or just purely for the sake because he or she has some kind of chemistry with me and is interesting enough to hang out or chat with, I also sometimes fear at the thought of having a wide social circle. Because this somehow complicates your life in a way, or the other. Sometimes you do wonder, whether you’re doing things out of obligations just because they are asking you, or whether it’s because you are willing to do it simply because you really consider them as your true friends, thus it’s worthwhile for you to do anything for them?

It never feels good when a friend rejects you, when you ask him or her out. Genuinely you may have your own reasons for doing so; be it commitments like school or work. But for me I will always make it a point to make amendments. Not free today? We can always arrange some other day to catch up. I always make it a point to make amends if I’m not free on the day my friends ask me out, cause I would feel that just shrugging them aside isn’t a very good idea. They are there for you when you need them, so when they need you obviously you should do the same for them too. It’s a two-way thing, not one-sided effort. Ultimately you have to touch your own heart, and make known to yourself that a friendship consists of not only about your life, but that other half’s as well, your friend also known as your tomodachi. Remember, your friends will definitely appreciate you as a friend if you are willing to make time for them, if you are not even willing to make some time off your schedule for them, what kind of friend are you really?

忙，是不是最好用的借口。。。？

Heh, yet another one of those topics again that sets my mind in a twirl. I’m tired and I don’t wanna think so much about it already. However if you have any opinions on this issue that you would like to speak up, please feel free to comment in the comments page, I would be glad to hear some of my friends’ views on this issue as well.

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Anyway, I recently got to know 2 very nice girls, Angel and Lorraine through Friendster. Not that I’m really free nor desperate to go search for girls on Friendster mind you, but somehow they found me and after some chatting up, they seemed like very nice people to me. Angel is an anime-fanatic while Lorraine is a japanophile like me. And not to forget, both of us are Laruku fans as well, and she adores Hyde and his music very much as well like me. Oh and how can I not write about this, she has even published her own book before! No kidding, she was even featured in a Strait Times’ article before. Check out her website here. She’s a real talented gurl, sort of like my inspiration heh. You go gurl, rock on babe!

Anyway just now Angel was bitching to me just now that she is jobless now. I told her to look on the positive side of life, cause that means she has more time to spend with her bf and her loved ones now. I always tell myself to look at both sides of a situation, cause when something bad befalls on you, that’s the only way to console yourself. Ultimately life is short, so rather than be unhappy about something, I would always try to make the best out of it. Heh, if only I can think that positively in every matters of life. (^ ^);

Alrights, it’s late and I’m going out to chill tomorrow, so I’m off to bed now. Goodnight my friends, and enjoy the nice weekend ahead. I really really miss you guys man, hope to catch up with everyone of you soon after my exams. Martin, Jimmy (seizure), Jeremy, Kaiwei, Pris, Mitchelle, will catch up with you people soon!

Solitary. I can’t help but sometimes find myself stuck in my own little world, just like this picture. This was taken quite sometime ago outside Plaza Singapura.

Lights. Beautiful Lights. There’s a reason why I like to gaze at stars at night, watch fireworks etc.

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Good morning world! After three consecutive days of hard battle, it was finally a day of breather for yours truly here and I’m just glad to be back to my own little world for now, with more of my loads of bullcrap thoughts and life accounts to entertain you guys with.

So honestly, I guess I’m safe to say that I did quite ok for all my papers, so far. With the exception of Maths P1 (this one totally flunked man, left so many questions blank) the rest should be considered SAFE; which in my own words stands for Successful And Flat-out Eminence. I guess I really have to put in more effort for my Maths P2 which is tomorrow, so that means more mugging later on, hurhurhur.

And I’m quite surprised that the question papers they have now are a far contrast to what I used to had last time. Gone are the days where you would see MCQs, with a separate answer sheet for you to shade your answers from choices A to D. No more of that shit anymore. Honestly I was quite taken aback when I read my question papers for my English P2 (Revised Edition). No doubt it was quite easy, I mean c’mon all along in my sec sch days I had never flunked my English ever once before, and I don’t even remember studying for my English back then. It was purely a guts feeling kind of thing, and Lady Luck was always on my side I guessed. So actually this time I did the exact opposite; really studied for my English, as well as constant checking up on the dictionary so I can memorise and use those words that I would need to use mainly for my continuous writing. I wasn’t prepared to take any risk this time, cause I sorta realised this was a really crucial subject, if I somehow flunk this paper, there goes the whole exam and my efforts, all washed down the drain. Anyway now that it’s finally over, I’m glad to say that it’s a high possibility that it would be a definite pass for this one, if not an A. I also have to thank my family and of course the Lord himself too, they have been very supportive and faithful to me, giving me the strength to sustain this tough period throughout.

Right now, I’m actually quite drained both mentally and physically, cause I’m not used to taking exams for quite sometime, and that means forcing myself to get used to such an event or situation where I will have to react accordingly. I’m totally lacking of adequate sleep for these past few days, cause the hyper-tension and pressure is up there and I have so much to cram into my limited brain cells within such a short time. But I guess somehow I will survive this period, I definitely will and I must. The aspiration and determination to pass this exam is right on, deep in my heart and soul.

I also have to thank my friends for supporting me throughout this tough period, you guys really make my day man. It’s really nice to know I have some really nice friends around with me, thank you so much for the concern and encouragement, I can’t stress how much I am grateful to you guys and girls, but I’m just really happy and glad, thanks. (^ ^)

Nobuta wo Produce episode 4 was nice. And I also had some time yesterday night to finish up episode 2 of Hana Yori Dango, and my my Inoue Mao is definitely hot. Not to forget Sada Mayumi too, she’s like the asian reincarnation of Paris Hilton! Will post up some screenies soon, I promise. *winks*

Ok signing off for now, will be back with more updates soon.

8 more hours to Maths Paper 1. Die exams die. Strengthen and sustain me, Father. You’ve got to help me here with my weakest subject. Onegaishimasu, Kamisama!!! _|￣|O

Spent the whole weekend this week revising at home, lol very last minute revision actually. And Nobuta wo Produce episode 4 is finally out, currently sitting in my harddisk screaming for attention. Haven’t had the time to watch it yet, the bloody exams is driving me crazy and causing me to lose out on j-drama and anime me-time, and not to mention I have plenty of backlog of games to catch up on too. Ahhhh give me back my freedom. (;-_-)

Ok back to more mugging before I head off to bed, I can’t stand groggy mornings without enough sleep, my temper will bound to suffer drastically, just hope tomorrow no-one will kana anything from me, lol. Signing out, oyasumi minna!

Two blog posts in a night. Rare sight eh? But the previous post ain’t meant for you guys to see, only that person concerned will have the chance to read it, sorry to disappoint you guys. It’s about some personal stuffs I wished to voice out to that person so I have to make it private.

So right now, it’s actually drizzling out there, another one of those rainy nights again. I’m listening to 林俊杰 - Di Er Tian Tang right now, and the song fits the mood totally man, with the rain splattering against the windows. Suddenly have this huge craving for singing KTV man lol, but I can’t sing my lungs out in my room now because it’s already so late, later my parents thought I went crazy or something lol singing in the middle of the night.

So I had just finished watching episode 3 of Nobuta wo Produce just now, pretty good stuffs. I initially caught on this latest Fall jdrama because of 堀北真希 (also known as Maki Horikita), but this is shaping out to be a very good jdrama, and not just about pretty girls and bishies. And seeing 山下智久 (also known as Yamashita Tomohisa or Yamapi) acting as this happy-go-lucky highschool student, just cracks me up man. I think this is one of his better roles in the jdramas I saw him in before, ’cause usually his roles in the jdramas he acts in are usually more reserved, but things has since been quite promising for him since he starred in Dragon Sakura and now in Nobuta wo Produce. Definitely one of the more promising male actors from the Johnny’s group talent agency. Another guy who is starring along-side him as one of the male lead is 亀梨和也 (also known as Kamenashi Kazuya) but that guy’s acting is quite uninteresting so I shall skip all the introduction stuff, all I know is he’s from the boy-band KAT-TUN and he’s also signed under the Johnny’s group talent agency.

I’m also currently watching Hana Yori Dango which is the jdrama alteration of the original manga. This show is commonly known as Meteor Garden in Taiwan, with the famous taiwan boy-band F4 acting as the role of each male lead characters from the original manga. So far I have watched only episode 1, and it’s shaping out to be a very good and fun jdrama, will definitely continue watching this series. And Shun Oguri is acting as Hanazawa Rui which is my favourite char in HYD, so it’s interesting to see how this goes. I will try to put up some screenshots of both jdramas soon so stay tuned.

And yeah, dinner was great yesterday with Syahmi and Jimmy, we had Pepper’s Lunch at Taka. And Jimmy finally got his new handphone which is the Sharp 903SH that I’m carrying now. Wah not bad ah, so far I actually managed to psycho two of my friends by enticing them into buying that phone, lol tells you how successful I would be if I were to be a salesman. So that aside, we spent the whole evening doing some window-shopping and more eating again at Mos Burger later, damn shoik man so long never go for food feast liao. Syahmi just finished his fasting period so we went for some feasting spree, initially we headed over to Far East Plaza for some Rotiboy but it was closed so he was like kinda sad cause he was craving for it lol. Anyway it was super fun just out chilling and enjoying food with close friends, and Syahmi proposed an idea to me yesterday which I think is also a great idea in my opinion, will discuss it with Ronald about it soon. Wanna know what the idea is about? Haha stay tuned for more updates then, probably will reveal everything once the plans has officially commenced. (^ ^)V

On the other hand, she responded to my blog entry a few nights ago. I still didn’t initiate a conversation with her, ’cause seriously, I really do not know what to respond or reply to her. I was suddenly dumbfounded for words. On one hand, I’m not sure if it has been a misunderstanding for been angry with her due to some miscommunication, and on the other hand, I didn’t believed she actually consider our friendship that much in regards. I really don’t know what to say. I need time. If you’re actually reading this, please believe me, I didn’t hate you in the first place, I might be angry with you literally but not to the extent of hating you. What I mean by I have nothing more to say to you, is with regards to some issues pertaining to our friendship. Give me some time, I will look for you personally to clarify things once I think I’m ready.

Ok I’m signing off, oyasumi minna-san laters!

So after yesterday’s papers (Chinese P1 & P2) it was officially an one week study break for me till the next one. All I can say is I think I didn’t do too shabby for my Chinese, though I don’t understand why I actually ran out of time for both papers. Continuous writing was pretty much a disaster; I spent too much time on the first one, and I actually ran out of ideas on what to write for the second one. Then I left out 3 questions blank in Paper 2 because simply, I don’t have enough time to attempt it, or rather you can say I didn’t really practised good time management for the paper. Oh well, scoring A’s would most probably be out for Chinese now, I’m guessing most likely it would be a B or C probably. It’s over now, so all I can think of is to concentrate and focus on my other subjects, no use brooding over it. I’m actually pretty glad to have this short study break for now, if not I think the stress up there would totally make me break down somehow.

On the other hand, I think I’m starting to lose faith in some of the things in life. I’m not sure why, it just striked upon me that as much as I wished to believe something, things don’t really seem that optimistic to me anymore, or I can’t think that positively anymore. My views on various matters seemed more cynical now, not that I was affected by anything, but it just tend to be like this somehow. Change in perspectives? Perhaps. I’m more non-chalant now, I don’t like to stress my ideas on something unless really needed, usually I would just go with the flow. I don’t know if this is good or bad, but I personally think that it isn’t a very good idea to input and force your perspectives into other peoples’ lives too much.

Oh well, I also don’t know why I’m talking about this. Nothing to do with my mood today, I’m actually feeling pretty fine. But I guess it’s because of all the study stress and emotions kept inside me recently, thus I might be expressing myself in a different way, but definitely not in an incoherent manner, ’cause I’m pretty clear of what I’m trying to input here.

Anyway, Pris msged me yesterday out of the blue, and both of us apologised to each other for the nasty stuffs we scolded each other sometime back. I guess sometimes among friends, we just need some time to cool off, before things would get better without any reason. Both of us didn’t think that it would be this simple, but all it really takes is one simple sms to make things alright again. It’s friends like this, that I wished that I can appreciate and cherish them more in life. I need more people like this to be in my life, not some people who simply takes friendships for granted, expecting people to always give in to their ideas and perspectives in life.

And on the other hand, I haven’t spoken to her for almost a month already, I think. Our last conversation didn’t really end in a good way, but I’m pretty sure of my actions and words I said to her during that time. I think it’s the reality that made me realised that, in a good way. The truth about how she can say one thing, and do another thing to you. The worst thing is, not keeping to her promises. And I really hate people who break their promises, period. I guess I’m safe to say, this has definitely nothing to do with horoscopes, but it’s simply a individual and individual thing. It takes two hands to clap, and if only one side makes the effort, things would never work out or go smoothly.

I still have something I need to pass to her, but I think I will do that by snail mail instead. It’s not about courage, it’s about I believe there isn’t anything else to talk about with her, anymore. The fact that during this one whole month, she didn’t attempted to contact me, just proves my words right. True, it has been excruciating for me in a way, but I don’t stay at one place and cry over spilled milk; I’m a much stronger person now and I have to move on. This world has so much more, better things out there waiting for me. Perhaps she is but just an acquaintance that wasn’t meant to be.

So yeah I’m fine now, really. Please don’t ask me about anything regarding this entry when you see me, ’cause I’ll usually write my stuffs and forget about it after awhile, you don’t have to remind me about it. This is just the way of life, and I’d come to live with it. I have my friends with me for emotional support, and I have Jesus with me for spiritual support, all’s good in life and will always be, hopefully.

Ok signing out for tonight, I’m finally taking a break tomorrow and going out with Jimmy and Syahmi to chill, looking damn forward to it. Take care everyone, laters. (^ ^)

I’m totally sick. Down with flu and sore throat. Just feel like sleeping the whole day instead of touching my books. Pure irritated to the fact, I have to carry a dozen tissues with me everywhere I go. Appetite haven’t been very well either, I think this whole exam period thingy is affecting me too much, I’m just pretty worried, stressed and emotionally challenged right now. Why emotionally challenged? Cause some people can be so non-chalant and talk about stuffs that hurt your feelings through their blogs. I really don’t wanna go back to square one with this, but all I wanna say to this person is that if you wanna be so indignant about that matter, then so be it. I can’t change your opinion nor idealism. In the first place, ask yourself why you are doing such self-gratification to yourself, while shrugging my words to you away simply and giving yourself excuses to avoid the whole topic. I don’t really give a fuck about whether you are in the comfort zone or not, or whether anything is fair in this world, cause like you said, it’s all about finding that balance in life. And you jolly well know your limits in life too. If you wanna talk about respect and trust to me, you better go back to your roots and find some for yourself first.

So skipping the non-related topics aside, I was feeling bored just now so I decided to upload some pictures I took with my Sharp 903SH recently. I don’t have any mood to talk about anything today, so just sit back and enjoy the pictures. I’m gonna head off to bed after this, cause I have to wake up at 6am later to send Timothy off at the airport, for his trip to Perth. He’s leaving for good, gonna join the rest of his family there. Guess we’re really gonna miss him, but oh well nowadays with technology, nothing’s impossible for long-distance communication. Skype and MSN is here to stay. (^ ^)

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Ohayo minna-san! Woke up early as usual today to study even though I reached home pretty late close to 4am last night due to the KTV session I had with my clique. Yesterday was also Timothy’s farewell dinner, we had zi char at somewhere near Boon Keng, it was pretty oishii man. So after dinner, we headed to Boat Quay’s Partyworld for KTV with the guys, had a pretty good singing session with them. Really enjoyed myself, and I think Timothy enjoyed himself too. Oh and he’s finally an owner of a Pink Nintendo DS, thanks to Deli and Jac as well as the rest of them who chipped in for his present. As for me and the rest of the guys, we will be presenting our present (still a secret lol) to him on the 27th which will also be the day when he’s flying off to Perth, to re-unite with his family and also part of his migration and study plans. (sob sob) Anyway good things will always come to an end, so let’s cherish the memories we all had together all these while, and may our friendship last forever. Here’s to our friendship; May it be reckoned long as a lifetime, close as a second.

Anyway, I had some spare time to do up the review for my new phone this morning, so I decided to get on with it and present to you guys some pictures of my new toy as well as a mini-review of the phone. First and foremost, may I present to you the official press release and full specifications of the Sharp 903SH, by Vodafone Japan (now officially known as Softbank Mobile Corp).

Official Press Release on 11th of August, 2005.
Vodafone K.K. today announced that, as part of its new 3G lineup, from mid August 2005 it will offer the Vodafone 903SH handset by Sharp, it features the industry’s first 3.2 megapixel auto focus mobile camera with 2X optical zoom.

The 903SH’s best-in-class*1 3.20 megapixel mobile CCD camera can bring both the foreground and background clearly into focus with its 5 high-performance aspheric glass lenses. The camera also uses the Frame Interline Transfer process, the same type used in professional-quality broadcast video cameras, to prevent the “smear”*2 phenomenon. Vodafone 903SH customers can also enjoy advanced photography with picture sizes of up to QXGA sizes (1,536 x 2,048 pixel).

*1: As of 28 July 2005 in the Japanese market (according to Vodafone K.K.).

*2: Smear phenomenon: phenomenon typical of CCDs, for example, when headlights or light from the sun causes vertical streaks of light to appear on the image.

3D Surround Stereo Side Speakers for realistic sound enjoyment
The Vodafone 903SH comes equipped with 3D Surround Stereo Side Speakers on the left and right of the handset display panel so customers can experience unprecedented audio realism. The 903SH has pre-installed ringtones and games that support 3D sound.

2.4-inch Mobile ASV LCD for superior display and wide-angle viewing
The Vodafone 903SH’s 180 degree reversible Swivel Style 2.4-inch giant LCD display uses Mobile ASV, which is based on ASV (Advanced Super View) liquid crystal display technology found in Sharp’s AQUOS line of LCD TVs. The handset offers remarkably clear viewing in bright locations outside and in dark spots indoors, as well as wide views of 160 degrees* from all angles without any colour distortion. As a result customers can freely enjoy photography or image viewing at a variety of angles.
*In conformance with JEITA standards (5:1 contrast ratio)

Fully supports Vodafone K.K. 3G services
The Vodafone 903SH fully supports Vodafone K.K. 3G services such as Vodafone live! BB, which lets customers enjoy rich music and video content by downloading large files via their PCs, video calls, international roaming and Chaku-Uta Full® full track music downloads.

View Full Specifications: here.

View Product Features: here.

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Hey all. It’s been about 2 weeks since I last blogged. I’m pretty good, just a little more busy recently due to my upcoming exams, which is gonna take place in about 2 more weeks.

It’s stress and more stress, slowly accumulating up there. A little bit of it is good in a sense, cause it makes you wake up your idea in life and gets things moving, or rather gets my lazy ass moving. But sometimes a little too much can really drive me crazy. Sometimes, I just wanna be nonchalant to the things around me, and just be myself, be the little boy in my heart. But I can’t, I just can’t. I have responsibilities on hand and I know time is running out. Sigh. Reality check.

Recently in my life, I was been hit by some issues. What kind of issues, I won’t go into it. Let’s just say, apparently those friends whom you think u can trust, doesn’t trust you that much. So when things happen presumingly involving your name and that person’s name, the first thing they show you or slam you in the face, is their doubts and disbeliefs.

Fortunately, things got clarified and resolved, with the help of a modern technology called mobile phones, so it wasn’t that bad afterall. But after this particular thing has happened, it has certainly got me thinking. Thinking that while you are amiable with some people, there will always be some other people out there who are out to sow discord among you and your friends. And if the friendship is not strong within the clique, things might just turn out uglier than you would even imagine.

From the KJV Bible, under the Proverbs Chapter 6: 16 - 19, there’s this very concise meaning in the extract.
[16]These six things doth the Lord hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto him: [17] A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, [18] An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, [19] A false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren.

In short, it means of the seven things listed here that the Lord hates, three of them are sins of the tongue: a lying tongue, a false witness, and one who sows discord. The Lord hates it when we lie, or when we say something untrue about someone else or when we speak divisive words of someone. This is simply a reality check of the wrong human behavior, that we shouldn’t even possess or have in the first place.

And yes, this particular message is written in the hope, that whatever happens in life, you do not go and backstab or say something untrue about your friend, no matter what he or she has done to you. For God’s sake, he or she doesn’t owe you a living or what in the first place, so please don’t go and spread rumours or say something that’s untrue about him or her. Of course, if your heart is truly made of evil, then I have absolutely nothing to say. Please go kiss and hold the balls of the Devil then, go worship him and continue your evil-doings. And to that particular someone who’s reading this, YES YOU! If you don’t have any intentions of turning over a new leaf, all I can say is please fuck off and don’t come fucking mess with me. Cause if you do, I will not and I repeat, I will not hesitate to show you what I’m totally capable of.

So, that matter has finally blown over. All’s well again at the birthday boy’s dinner celebration which we had yesterday at Fish N Co at the Glasshouse opposite Plaza Singapura. Thanks to Ronald for the wonderful dinner, and hope you like our presents. Enjoy playing with your new toy too, I know you won’t regret it, cause I didn’t. (^ ^)V

So all things aside, I just got myself a new toy last week. Just a teaser picture for now, more pictures and a review to come.

Alrights it’s late, gotta go catch some sleep before I wake up later in the morning to do some more mugging. Later guys good night!

Life.

My life has been pretty good recently. As in, I have found amity among my bunch of friends, without too much politics. There are still politics talk whenever it’s concerned, but tell me which clique doesn’t have politics? Nevertheless, it’s good to know what we want, and we can voice out to each other comfortably, without actually creating conflicts among ourselves internally. Mutual understanding and compromising plays a part here too, and I’m glad all of them possess it.

I can’t believe that the discussion I had on Saturday with my group of clique, triggered some reminiscent times I shared with my previous clique, and actually made me look back at my past blog entries, dated as old as the year 2002. It was a year when alot of things changed for me. Lotsa things. The big dispute I had with my previous clique at Blk 532, which resulted in tears in my eyes. (I guess only Shaun remembers about this now?) The day I finally realised that I had been used and cheated by a friend whom I had regarded as a close friend of my. (I will never ever forget this…) Enlisting into national service on the day of enlistment itself, alone. (Yes, my clique wasn’t there for me back then)

Looking back at all these, it just felt like it happened only yesterday. So much things has happened, and we had all come a long way. Now thinking back, lotsa things I did back then were pretty foolish and immatured. Naive was what I was back then. I can hold on to my beliefs, regardless of how many people tend to fail my expectations. I always believe in my friends, regardless of whether they would bite me when I turn my back. I shared my wealth and happiness, regardless of whether they think I am flaunting about it. And it’s all because of a simple reason; I believe in them, my friends. I want them to be happy like me.

Unfortunately, this world isn’t perfect. Jealousy and discontentment exists among people. I can still remember back then someone actually scolded me and said that I was using my wealth to buy friendships. What mockery. I was stunned and shocked, especially when it was coming from a friend. What can I say? Of course I was hurted. It was a reality check.

Taking friends for granted. How often have you actually took your friends for granted? I always try not to, but I know I did. Thinking that my friends will be so agreeable, so forgiving and so nice to actually understand my reasons or excuses. Unfortunately, that was not the case. Once bitten, twice shy. People show you what they are capable of, when you pissed them off. And it hurts, it fucking hurts I tell ya.

I wished I was living in Heaven. But unfortunately this is the Earth that we are living in. Where we are bound by systems, and politics. Playing by the rules, and breaking the rules. And when it happens, we pay with consequences. Everything in life is bound to be billed with some consequences, whether you feel like been responsible or not. If you don’t like your life, you can only fucking blame it on yourself. That why you didn’t attempt to make it better, and why is it that your life’s so fucking sucks, that it doesn’t even make sense. Ask yourself, question yourself. It’s always good to ask when you don’t know something. At least you’ll learn something new at the end of the day.

I can’t believe that I was actually so nice, to consider forgiving this someone whom I used to distaste so much. (I don’t hate him that much now, since I can be pretty non-chalant these days) And why am I not surprised to know that he had been talking about my lan jiao wei behind my back, even though he doesn’t really know me that well. And like what Jimmy has said, I do wholly agree on the fact that he has to be taught a lesson, if not he won’t learn to respect others. This guy has totally no fucking idea how many people are waiting to beat him up, and yet he still can fucking assuringly think that it’s not selfish to ask for forgiveness. Think about your actions first, before you ask for something. If your actions doesn’t concede with what you are saying in the first place, do you think people would give you any chance, to prove yourself?

I’m waiting for the day, where he has the guts to scold me in the face. And if that happens, then that will be the day when I will finally beat the guts out of him too, don’t need to give face liao. We shall see.

There’s a limit to how nice I can be. If you have doubts, you are very welcome to try me.