This is gonna be another one of those fucking rants of my, so if you do not wish to read any please steer clear of this entry NOW.

I’m down with this emotionally-challenged syndrome again. And there’s those fucking academic concerns of my, and then some. Then I also have friends who simply thought that just because it’s not the end of the world for them, so they could take my words so lightly. (like oh why must I give a damn about your probs)

I had enough. I’m so fucking tired. I’m really emotionally-fuckingly hurted, that I just wished I had a personal space somewhere so I can hide in there forever, voided of everything.

I digress. Nobody should change or live for anyone. The moment you change yourself for someone or live for anyone, is when you really lose yourself. Tried and proven, by yours truly.

True friends should stick with you and accept you for who you are, and not ask you to change for others. What’s the point in that, when you start to change into someone else, losing yourself? What’s the essence in that? Make your fucking own judgement, and not listen to those self-proclaiming friends of yours. Wisen up.

I digress again. When shit happens to my friends, I never tell them it’s wholly alright that it’s not the end of the world, so they shouldn’t worry. Fuck it’s never wholly alright for anyone who’s in some kind of shit trouble, no matter how big or small it is. The least you can do, is stick with them and listen to them, lend them a listening ear in those times of need, and lend them your support. Not shrugging away the fact and trying to shun away from the topic. For fucking Christ’s sake, it’s during times like this that I realised that reality really bites, that it’s so fucking hard to find a friend who truly understands you.

I really really don’t wanna lose myself nor anyone. God, please give me a fucking break.

Sorry for the late updates. As promised here are some pictures of the games I gotten last week. And also both Dirge of Cerberus: Final Fantasy VII soundtrack and Gackt’s Redemption single arrived earlier on this week, so I figured it would be good to do some photos update together along with the stuffs.

From top-left to bottom-right: Bleach PSP preorder goods, Bleach: Heat the Soul 1 and Heat the Soul 2 for PSP. Bleach: Selected Soul, Compilation of Final Fantasy VII: Reflections DVD and finally Dirge of Cerberus: Final Fantasy VII for PS2.

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Recently been playing more actively in Animal Crossing: Wild World, and just yesterday I finally finished the list of tasks that Tom Nook (one of the crucial NPCs in the game) asked me to do, so I’m free to roam and do whatever I want in the town for now. Managed to hook up to Nintendo’s WFC service for the first time too yesterday via my router at home, got my friend code and started adding in people like Timothy and Jimmy into my friend’s list. Had fun in Timothy’s town (see above pic for reference) for awhile, and then we hopped over to Jimmy’s town too, then finally my. Timothy helped me planted some trees that’s originally not in my town, like apple trees, coconut trees and pear trees. I have too much oranges in my town so it’s good for a change. Those of you who do play ACWW and wishes to add me to their friend list, please either msn me or leave a comment in this entry, and I will try to msg you directly or something.

On the other hand, thanks to Speedpost my new batch of order from Playstation JP was delivered to my house yesterday morning, and I finally got hold of the Bleach PSP games that I wanted, alongside with my Bleach: Selected Soul and also FFVII: Dirge of Cerberus for the PS2. Will post up some pictures when I have the time, am heading out for a jog now before I meet the guys in the evening for dinner, it will be a belated birthday-celebration for Val today as originally planned.

Have a nice weekend ahead everyone. : ))

Happy Valentines everyone. As usual I have no dates awaiting for me this year, so this is just another overly-commercialised tragic day for me. Probably just the usual day routine for me; off to japanese class, ogle at the girl-who-always-wears-tubetop (who is a pretty good-looker btw) and then have dinner with Lorraine after classes.

Happy birthday to Valentine as well. Hope you get your dream Macbook Pro or iPod Nano from that special someone, whoever that is. Or if all else fails, there’s always plentiful of ogling or fantasizing goodness at the nice nice Apple Centres @ Cineleisure or Wheelock Place for ya lol.

For the rest of you guys and girls with either girlfriends or boyfriends, hope you’ll get laid or something later this evening. Enjoy the special day with your loved ones, and treasure them well.

ST Home section on pg15, on the Feb 11th Saturday issue. Grace complained earlier on in my blog comments saying that I didn’t blogged or pimped abt her at all, so undertaking the role as her bestest friend and ex-casting producer, how can I not do this? So here’s the obligatory entry.

Kelly Poon and Jocie Kok all graduated from Singapore Poly as well. My elder cousin too. Seems to be a pretty popular tertiary school locally here. Then again I would like to stress that it’s all abt the courses and modules that you are interested in, and not the school or institution that would determine where you should be. So please make your choice and decision wisely. : ))

This entry is dedicated to my lovelies, the lovable friends and stuffs in my life. Firstly we have the lovely and gracious one, and also the suave-suave pianist wanna-be, lol. Ok ok don’t hammer me please, just joking haha. Syahmi’s in Taiwan now doing his final exercise, before he passes out from Sispec finally, and he’s getting his 3rd-sergeant rank in just a matter of weeks. And Grace’s gonna have her papers very soon, so I’m praying for both of them. Syahmi’s probably not going to see this, but hey man you better be back safe and sound alright, you still owe me a Sentosa chill-out session! Hehe. And what about Grace, she has been really really nice to me man, comforted me quite abit when I ranted to her abt my exam results. Really really appreciate it gurl, thanks for all that, and huggies to ya too. Can’t wait till next time I see ya guys! And thanks so much for that doggy plushie mascot and the braided friendship bands! Can’t thank ya enough heh.

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Bought this Pierre Cardin wallet during my CNY shopping amongst the usual other stuffs like clothes etc, to replace my JPG wallet that I lost a couple weeks ago. Compartments are quite aplenty with nice interior designs, and there’s also a cool and nifty metal plate at the end outside, just like my previous JPG wallet. That pretty much sums up why it caught my eye.

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Oha minna! So it’s been about 28 days (or sixhundredandeighty hours) since my last entry. Some people must had thought that this site was gonna be on some long hiatus or something. Well it’s not. Actually it’s just yours truly here, who has been feeling quite ambivalent about blogging his personal life here, in this little space on this little wired planet. But I digress. I still love writing, though sometimes due to circumstances whereby I cannot truly express or convey my feelings through my own words, so at the same time it’s also quite a semantical baggage; I felt that my entries are just a whole lot of vacuous thoughts and opinions, and I’m not someone who tends to procrastinate alot, cause it’s not really my cup of tea. (or probably it’s just because I can be quite nonchalant towards certain things or people nowadays)

So what’s new in our protagonist’s life? Of course, CNY has been good. My Ang-baos had been quite bountiful, had a fun and fulfilling KTV on lunar eve, had lo-hei with some of my bestest friends, and then some. Though I didn’t get to eat much CNY goodies this year due to my bad sore throat (I digress; I was already in this sorry state even before CNY officially started, due to the freaking weather) it was still pretty good, able to do catching up and of course bai-nian-ing with friends and relatives during this festive period. Of course not forgetting that Nintendo has also dropped off a piece of good news (or in other sense, bad for ex-DS owners?) to start off the new year, with the official announcement release of the upcoming Nintendo DS Lite (which in short also stands for ‘light’ and ‘bright’) which is basically a remodeled NDS featuring a lighter and slimmer form-factor, as well as sporting 4-levels of brightness settings. To be released in Japan on the March of 2nd, for a nifty price-tag of 16,800 yen. So some of you might ask, is this actually a good or bad thing? Well, it’s definitely good news for new DS owners to-be, who wants to try out the games on the Nintendo DS platform so far, but never got down to buying it. Well now they have a better reason to, cause it comes in a smaller and sleeker form-factor. As for current DS owners, this might be seen as been shortchanged by Nintendo, since the current NDS has only been released for about 1 year and 3 mths. (I got my imported White NDS within a month after its release in Japan) So far, I’ve heard alot of fanboys ranting about this, but sadly all I can say is this was to be expected. The same old reason why the GBMicro was released to replace the GBASP. Newer models will always overtake the old models (not necessarily deemed obsolete, but you get the idea) with technology improvements, just like how for PC technology, processors and graphic cards come in smaller die sizes as time goes by. The exact same logics applies here, for console platforms and portables. Of course, for yours truly here who’s such a gadget freak, you can be sure when I get hold of my new NDS Lite, I will do up a mini-review of it, at my site and at my expense. Of course I welcome any donations too, just feel free to leave me a msg together with your contacts or msn at the comments page, and I will be very obliged and grateful to accept your kind donations, hehe.

So all that geek-talk aside, the exam results for the GCE O-Levels has been released since yesterday. Sadly to say, I didn’t do too well for it, since I only managed to pass 3 subjects out of the 6 subjects that I took. (my aggregate for L1R4 is 35pts, fuck lor) And the thing that really shocked and shooked me, I actually got an E8 for my English. Fucking hell, the examiner who had marked my English paper really ought to be shot. Then again this is not the time to procrastinate, cause what’s over is over. Now my plans is to retake those papers I failed (especially my E Maths, I seriously need help for this one (-_-’) while I wait for my appeal letter to get accepted by NAFA. There’s a high probability that I won’t get accepted by them due to my grade for my English, but still all I can do now is hope. So yeah, that basically sums up my damn results nightmare. To be honest, I think most of my papers can still be better, cause I actually ran out of time to do some of them (especially my English and Chinese) and it was actually a real miracle I can actually pass my Art paper too, and there I was thinking perhaps my skill really rusty liao, hurhur. Still, resitting for the papers this year is not going to be an easy task, since now I have my japanese to worry about, and also the JLPT exams in December, which is another burden altogether. But I guess it’s no use giving up now, cause I’m already half-way here, and if I give up on myself now, then what for I started all these in the first place right? Might as well strive for it and try again, since you will never know how far you will go till you’ve unlocked the hidden potential within you. There’s a phrase that goes like this; Give yourself a second chance. Take a second shot. Confront and overcoming your adversity will definitely help unleash the hidden potential in you. The limit is boundless.

Sigh, ok I have to admit that I was actually pretty sad over my results yesterday. So sad that I didn’t even had dinner. (I didn’t even touched brunch, cause I woke up in the afternoon) So yeah yesterday was pretty much spent on self-reflecting and all that. And I didn’t even go for Pris’ birthday celebration; she had organised some KTV outing to celebrate her bday with her friends and she invited me, but obviously I didn’t had the mood to party thats why I didn’t go. And just a few days ago Yonghao actually wanted to call me out for a drink one to catch up on the old times, and I actually promised him to come out and go clubbing together one if I did well for my O’s. Well now because of my fucking results, my whole mood is so fucking dampened lor, knn. Don’t think I will be having any plans this weekend also, since I have no fucking mood to go anywhere also seriously.

So there you have it. I’m sorry that this entry’s turning out to be like a ranting post, and I’m sure you guys don’t really like to read something like this. I sincerely apologise again for ranting it all out here, but this entry will also hopefully make you guys understand how I fared for my exams, so please don’t ask me about it anymore ok? It’s time to move on and I wanna move on too, no use crying over spilled milk anyway.

I have quite alot of photos that’s yet to be uploaded, since I haven’t been blogging. So expect some pictures soon over the weekend, just to spice up this space here abit. So stay tuned, and have a nice weekend ahead everyone.