I’m heading out in like 10 minutes time, meeting up with Syahmi and Grace at Bugis for lunch so I don’t have much time to blog actually. Will just do a quickie summary and some thoughts about what I have for this year.

This year has been a pretty fluctuating one for me. Plenty of ups and downs, though I think the latter happened to me more often in life (heh what’s new). Yet drastically as a whole person, I felt that I didn’t improve at all. Academically wise, yes I had sort of improved, but it remains to be seen whether I will enter the school of my choice next year with my results. Ahead of me are plenty of challenges just waiting for me to hit them on, so I wonder what will happen. Of course for most who know me, I’m actually a pretty laid-back person, happy go lucky kind of guy. I always take one step at a time, but that doesn’t mean I don’t plan for my future at all. It’s just that sometimes, the fear is there. Yes I’m afraid, but honestly who isn’t about that uncertainty? But if you are not willing to even try, how would you know about anything? So yes, I will presevere no matter what happens. The motto in my life now is, as long as we believe, we can achieve.

Met and made a pretty few good friends this year, and they had wonderfully added lotsa colors into my life. Without them, I think I wouldn’t have found the emotional support I needed in my life, apart from having my family. My relationship with my sister had also improved by quite alot this year, hopefully we will be as close as now in time to come. It’s nice to be able to share and talk with your siblings when you need to when the situation arises, cause this is something you just can’t simply share or do with your friends that easily. And I’m glad things are so much different now, it feels great and motivating at the same time.

I had also been single for more than a year now. And I thought I won’t fall in love this year, but it actually happened. I met the person of my dreams, but too bad we seemingly ain’t meant to be together. (or at least that’s what I think) There’s also the pretty huge age gap btw us, so I wondered is that one of the reasons. She’s also academically much better than me, so I wondered if she did mind about that too. But frankly I’m just glad that I had the chance to have met her, the feeling of liking someone else on your own part, aka unrequited love is simply much better than not been able to fall in love with anyone at all. Those sweet memories, those are already enough for me to live by. I’m just simply contented enough to have met her in my life, really.

Pretty mixed feelings. About Love, about Friendship. I’m not sure if things are gonna look up on me in 2006, but I guess I will still continue and walk on. I still wanna believe, in people, in my friends. Just because a couple of people out there happens to be an antagonist in the story of your life, it doesn’t mean that they have to be that significant to change anything in your life. As long as you believe, you will survive. Fuck those adversaries, fuck Satan. If you believe you can overcome and achieve, you will do so as long as you make the effort to believe in yourself.

Alrights that’s about it, I’m done. Gotta rush out now. New year resolutions? Haha will do it over the weekend when I have the time. Why not you people start one first? Then maybe I can see if it can inspire some ideas onto me, hahahah. Ok monsieur aaron out! (^ ^)