The rain dwindled to a drizzle. It was raining cats and dogs the whole night. I woke up awhile ago just now with drizzling rain still happening outside. I was having the intention of going for a morning run this morning but seeing how the weather is, the plans were cancelled. So I actually had the urge to laze in bed alittle while longer, but I figured that I should wake up and make myself some nice breakfast, read some newspapers and surf the net. And that’s what I did.

My breakfast = French toast with sausage and chicken pie together with soya bean milk with barley flavour in it, courtesy of Nutrisoy. Pure heavenly goodness, ’nuff said.

My weekend was pretty good. I had fun indulging myself with my PS2 and catching up on more anime and jdramas. First impressions of Resident Evil 4 and Shadow of the Colossus was great. Will do a short review of RE4 real soon. And not to forget I also had the chance to try out Mario Kart DS last Friday with the peeps after dinner at Esplanade Makansutra. First impressions of the game was pretty good; the multiplayer aspect of the game was very nice, you must try the 8-player multiplayer out yourself to get a feel of it, it’s really quite good. Who would have thought that something so simple like kart-racing would be so fun, and the feeling of 8-player multiplayer makes this game real crazily fun and addictive. I was almost sold on this one, if not for the fact that I’m not really a fan of Mario and gang, I think I would have bought this game for my NDS. Blame it on the amount of upcoming PS2 games I will have to get as well as the newly-released Sonic Rush for the NDS, so much that I can’t just buy any games that I want, so I’ll have to plan my purchases carefully for now.

Planning to go job-hunting this Wed after my last paper, and also go check out the Singapore Design Festival, which should be quite interesting the least to say. Anyone of you who’s interested to join me please feel free to give me a ring or msg, I don’t mind some company but I really intend on going alone myself, cause this is not some chilling session that I would usually do with my friends. So approach me only if you have the eye and interest for the design and culture, if not just leave me alone for this one. (^ ^)

I saw some reports on the recent World Cyber Games tournament finals which I didn’t go for some obvious reasons. I’m actually quite non-chalant abt the local PC-gaming culture here already, ’nuff said. But anyway, USA won CS: Source and Halo 2 (err what’s new?), China won WC3 (ahh thats something new to me), Korea won Starcraft: BW (not surprising at all…) and Japan won DOA: Ultimate (nothing new too). And Channel U of Mediacorp was doing the coverage for the event over the weekend too on TV, it was hilarious seeing the response of some of the gamers on TV, really. Still I’m giving the applause to the government and the media for making the event such a hoo-haa, cause it goes to show that gaming is also a culture on its own, and it’s not only what kids and children do. Some people and most older-generation people (including my mum) thinks that gaming is simply a waste of time, and isn’t beneficial in any sense. I hope that this mentality that the public holds will change very soon in the not-so-distant future. This will also encourage the younger generation who have the passion for gaming to fully unleash their talent upon competitions and tournaments like this in future, as a cyber sport and also further proving Singapore can also be a significant icon for cyber-gaming on the whole, regardless of how small the gaming community is over here. (as compared to Japan and Korea)

And onto other matters, I finally had a talk with her last night and got things resolved. I was truly relieved. But I also discovered something else, that there was actually some third-party involved. And I know that person as well too. Talk about friendships. This is just one ugly side of it. And I simply cannot understand why friends have to do these kind of things to their own friends. When you jolly well know what I’m writing about in my blog, you don’t have to go and be a messenger to the other person involved telling him or her what I had written, just because you felt that it was justifiable for doing so. There’s no such thing as it’s justifying for you to do something like this regardless of how close you are with that person, because it’s either 1) you simply enjoy been a nosey-head OR 2) you wish to score more on the good books of that related person in picture OR 3) you really really don’t understand what respecting privacy is all about, period.

Sometimes I don’t understand why people like to indulge in this kind of incessant talk. And yet he can still tell me he does it because he felt it was justifiable for him to do so. Oh please, spare me that crap. He was lucky I didn’t blew up in the midst of the conversation with him, I was holding back on my temper all the while and he just had to give me all that egoistic talk. Err, why don’t you try and be in my shoes, while I assume your role? Now let me start all the talking and gossiping stuffs about you to her, how would you feel? She told me what I needed to know, you don’t have to deny to me you didn’t start any conversations about me. So now tell me, in what way is it justifying for you to do something like this, to a friend? Ain’t what you are trying to do, trying to gossip at the expense of your friend’s position or reputation?

I told him off yesterday night, and he promised me not to do such a thing again. I certainly hoped so, cause I really treated him as my friend, he’s really alright but he’s just too egoistic for his own good. He was telling me sometime back about how he was been outcasted by people in his school, and I sympathized with him. I tried to cheer him up, and told him sincerely to look on the bright side of life; things will eventually turn and get better for him. But now, I somehow understood why he was been outcasted by his peers among him, he sometimes just does extra things that are really uncalled for. Perhaps he’s still young, he’s still insensible. But I certainly hoped that he understands one day that, there are alot of sides to everything, and just because you assumed that something was meant to be that way, it doesn’t have to turn out that way. Life is not all about going accordingly to the books and theories written in it, you have to take a risk and do it the alternative way sometimes. A baby doesn’t learn how to walk, no matter how much you tell him or her to, until he or she tries it and falls, countless of times. When you have a problem in life, sometimes you just have to keep trying, no matter how hard and tired you may be, at least you stand a spark of hope as long as you keep trying. Only perseverance and determination will pull you through, in those hard times you may encounter.

You are still my friend, no matter what. I won’t leave you in a lurch, whenever you need me. Just try to respect people’s privacy and know what you should do and shouldn’t do. If your friends are comfortable with approaching you and telling you stuffs, they will tell you eventually, you don’t even have to probe abt it from other people. Friendships are something meant to be mutual, not forced or struggling with reluctance.

Ok all’s well again. Syahmi’s booking out this Sat and we will be catching up for a movie, can’t wait to see him, he’s finally passing out from SISPEC. A real man in the making, haha. Way to go bro! And then finally I’m gonna see her this weekend as well, ahh I can’t wait.

Things are finally going back to normal in my life. It has pretty been a roller-coaster ride for me the past few weeks, especially with all those exams stress up there, her comments she left for me which caused me to be in a twirl of mindless struggle (ahhh, now u know you had caused me some additional emotional stress to handle =P) and some other issues I had to handle. I’m really glad things are going back to what they are, of course there are always people out there who will always try to make things difficult for you in life, but I will just live by the fact that, what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger. Yeah come what may.

Ok more updates soon. Signing out ta-daa! (^ ^)