Exams are approaching. Having my Chinese paper next mth. LC & Oral actually. Received the full timetable and schedule slip already. Tension is slowly building up inside me. I have been pretty much laid back these few months, but this is like the final straw for me. Gonna mug the books hard and get ready for hell to break loose. Bring it on, for the masquerade awaits me. The fruits of chaos waiting to be savored by me.

Anyway, sorry for the short hiatus. This is not a blog leave on purpose. I didn’t lose my flair for writing either. I actually do have quite alot of stuffs to write about, but I always seem to have stuffs to do, so I decided to just push my blogging aside. Life has been good. Caught a few good movies. Chilling with my company of good friends. I even went back to clubbing a few days ago with my girl buddy. Zouk was alright, I guess. Haven’t been there for quite awhile, was there last Fri with Pris, Michelle and her bf. Saw lotsa hot babes, but not gonna go into details about that, haha. Overall it was quite enjoyable, I actually went there because of Pris since she wanted company, and also I enjoy dancing so I was thinking why not. 28 bucks for only two hours there was a disaster though, I would have preferred going KTV instead if I had a choice. Guess clubbing ain’t really my cup of tea anymore, heh guess I really did changed afterall. (^.^'’)

And what else? I finally bought my Sony NW-HD5 HDD-Walkman. It was launched on the 18th this month, and because of my purchase @ Juzz 1 at Funan I also got a pretty nifty 50 bucks iPod Shuffle for cheap, good deal ya? I gave the iPod Shuffle to my Mum in the end, figured that since she has no MP3 player this would do her good. A pretty basic DAP though, it’s not to my taste but having tested the SQ with my canalphones, it was pretty decent. The controls are pretty intuitive too which is an advantage, explained to my Mum about the controls etc in less than 5 minutes and she got the hold of it pretty much. The ability to be able to use it as a thumbdrive comes in useful as well, 50 bucks for a 512Mb thumbdrive is a real bargain I say.

Things aside, I had been thinking about lotsa stuffs recently. Dreams. Horizon. Friends. Love. Life. Pondering on random thoughts. Broken memories, some good, some bad. Aplenty of questions. Still seeking for various answers. Sometimes I think we really think too much. I use ‘we’ because it happens to each and everyone of us. Sometimes we just blatantly question our existence in life, even though we are living and making the best out of it. Foolish? Maybe. Pointless? Maybe not. Sometimes it’s only having thoughts like this, that makes you what you are. Dreaming about dreams. Craving for accomplishing that certain goal or satisfying that desire of yours. Without these, life would probably be so defunct, so frigid dull and a waste to live. But having said these, sometimes too much of questioning seems to be able to create alternative problems instead. Just another random thought of my, heh don’t mind me.

Whatever it is, I just hope I can be always happy. I realised that most of the time, we seem to be asking too much. Way too much really. Perhaps we should just be contented with what we have. Frankly I’m pretty much happy with my current life, maybe occasionally still missing that certain vibe or that certain someone, but on the whole I’m really quite contented overall. And I’m really thankful to my family and friends for that, it’s you guys and gurls that makes me what I am today, and with you people around, it makes my day a great one everyday. Just wanna let you people know I really appreciate your existence and presence around me, it’s you people that make things happen and thanks for rocking my life hard. You guys know who you are, heh.

So it’s yet another mellowy and peaceful night. I shall go study awhile more before I go to bed. Good night everyone. (^_^)V

Oh where are you graciousness?
Come back at one and reside in my heart
For my heart longs for warmth again
The kind that tugs my heart so longingly, lovingly
That melts all resentment, sadness and disappointment inside me
Those beloved memories that dries my tears away….