No, not the balance of the ‘force’. This has totally nothing to do with the upcoming blockbuster flick Star Wars Episode 3 - Revenge of the Sith even though I’m really anticipating and damn hyped for it. I just couldn’t think of a better topic for this entry, but oh well never mind about that.

So well today, me and Jimmy finally had our ‘embroilment’ with him (read my previous blog entry for details) on IRC over the evening. Frankly, I think he’s still not quite convinced nor has he accepted the fact, that it’s not only me who’s at loggerheads with him now, and shifts the blame and everything and the cause to me, pointing fingers at me for causing all these ‘feud’ between him and the others. But the main point is, if the rest ain’t happy with him too, and wishes to stay away from him, what can he do? Nothing. Nil. Nada. Now he seems to be blinded by the fact, and lives in self-denial. In absolute reluctance.

I have said my part and told ‘him’ firmly just now, and I will not hesitate to say this again. If he’s sincere to offer me an apology, he shouldn’t be doing all these behind my back, telling the others ‘untrue’ stuffs abt me behind my back. I may not have ‘ultrasonic’ ears to hear all these myself personally, but a scandal is still a scandal afterall, gossips are bound to be leaked in some ways. He, been the gossipmonger, thought that he will be able to uphold and protect his own reputation by maligning me, and not spilling any beans. But boy was he wrong, the reason been? It’s all within the balance. In life I had always believed that, everything has a balance. Good & Evil. Light & Darkness. The Kind & The Cruel. Yeah you get what I mean. When there’s a beginning, there’s an end to it. And end it shall.

So now, I think he has finally got ‘our’ message. I use ‘our’ because what I had just conveyed earlier on in IRC and also in this current entry, is the will of ‘us’, and I believe this message should be firm and straightforward enough for him to understand. What we really want now, is just some peace. And please do not come and talk to me or even try to tag along for outings when we never even ask or invite you in the first place. Asking is a basic form of courtesy or manner, and we will talk and ask you personally when the time is right. In the meantime, please make yourself sacred so ‘we’ can get to enjoy and keep our privacy, thank you very much.

I honestly think this post entry should be firm and clear enough, and I really hope he gets the message. And what surprises me even more is what Jimmy has told me over the phone conversation just now. It’s just so amazing that I didn’t even know he has so much bad blood with some ‘others’, people I would have never expected. Then again, I already sort of know his character and his way of principles, so it’s of no real surprise actually. I really hope in time to come, this event would prove a lesson to him, and make him change for the better. We are all humans afterall, and we do make mistakes. No doubt we do have regrets some point in our lives along the way, but at least we learn from it, from our mistakes we commit. Only then can we improve ourselves and strike a balance for everything, thus making a better place for everyone, to inhabit and mix with.

So much for today. Gonna retire for the night. And I’m gonna watch Swing Girls with Valentine and gang tomorrow, yeah another movie outing. Then there’s the upcoming Steamboy anime screening this Thursday at Shaw Lido with the rest of the peeps from sgGamers. Definitely looking forward to it. Oyasumi nasai minna-san! (^_^)V