Hello minna-san! Well it’s a brand new year again, let’s hope everyone will have a fresh new start to this year and may all our wishes and resolutions for this year come true. It’s a rather late update since I promised to do a concluding post abt my life before the new year but I was too caught up with stuffs and lack of sleep recently that I only had some time to do some decent blogging today.

It’s been a rather high and low frequency kind of thing for me recently, lotsa things happened thus for my topic today. Emotions are fragile. Relationships are nothing but a cliche in reality for me right now. Sometimes I get so easily affected emotionally by my friends around me. And it doesn’t seemed to help much that although having a platonic friend to confide and relate to, sometimes it just gradually brings back those sad and hurtful memories, awakening the melancholic side within myself.

One of my closer female friend recently broke up with her bf. I received the bad news from her when I was out with my friends on that day, and once I was done I immediately went down asap to accompany and console her. Later on that evening, somehow her bf sorta patched back with her, much to her assurance. She was kinda committed into this relationship, the guy was like the ideal guy for a long-term relationship, possibily already considering marriage plans in the future ahead of them, she said. But can you imagine, when that guy brought up the breakup decision, it was reasons or probably you could call it excuses, like both of their eating and sleeping habits are different? And they have different characteristics, thus they have their differences and not suitable for each other. I was totally flabbergasted with his so-called reasons for the breakup, to me it’s totally lame and unacceptable. But of course, you give all kinds of reasons or excuses when you wanna break up with someone, there’s never so-called a logical reason or acceptable excuse for breaking up, you break up for a cause, and because when there’s a cause, there’s always a reason behind it.

I met her bf once before, somehow he gave me a neutral first impression if you would ask me. Never really interact much with him too, he didn’t seem really that friendly or prob there’s just nothing much in common to talk about, so not that I’m anti-social or anything. Still I wouldn’t normally judge a person merely by the first impression, often the first impression of a person can be very misjudging, if not impeccable. Somehow I felt that her bf was a rather decent though, he’s currently serving his national service right now, like most other guys at his age, the same age as me if you’re curious. My friend got to know him for roughly about 2 months before they really dated and became a couple, so it was not something like an impulse decision or what, she really did gave it a good serious thought before deciding to commit into this new relationship.

She’s ok right now, at least that’s what I think. Just hanged up the phone with her not too long ago, assuring and asking her not to think too much, telling her it’s still best to just have a personal confrontation talk with him to resolve the issues one to one. She wasn’t sure if the patch would help in the long run, afterall when the other party had already brought up the break-up issue before, things would most likely turn different in the relationship in future, whether you like it or not. But then she also didn’t wanna give it up so easily, afterall he’s like the ideal guy she wanted to be with in a long-term relationship, and possibily marriage. So I told and assure her that, perhaps time will tell everything, so just try and take things one step at a time.

Her bf can be rather unfeeling at times too, rather insensitive if you would ask me. Throwing her alone on new year’s eve, going to someone elses’ birthday bash party at his friend’s house. So I was out with her yesterday, spending our evening at Orchard, chilling out. She went off later on around 10PM to wait for his bf to pick her up, since they made plans to stay over at his place. Then I went to Taka to look for Michelle and gang to meetup with them and chill till countdown, just then Cynthia and gang called me and said they were at China Black, but I didn’t really felt like going clubbing so I turned them down nicely. Didn’t really enjoyed myself much either yest, well let’s just say the atmosphere and the crowd was there, but my mind was at somewhere else, just didn’t had the mood to celebrate. Got myself into a freaking mess also with all the sprays and foams and stuffs, as well as a good squishing experience with the hogs of people on the streets. Well it’s only once a year, so I can’t really complain much. Reached home around 3AM, took a hot bath to relieve myself, then it’s finally sweet dreams for me at 4AM.

My new year resolutions for 2005? Kinda of having a total bunch of them, a massive run-down would be too long-winded. But I guess my main piorities for this year is to really study hard if I ever get into NAFA, and also get my Class 3 driving license. I will be happy enough if ever I can accomplish this two piorities, one should never be too greedy or ambitious. And yah, eat well and sleep well. I really need to accomplish that. Seriously considering going on a strict training programme and diet for myself, I really hate my current physique, I sorta find myself too pale and too thin, so I really need to gain some solid mass. Maybe it’s time to check out GNC’s line of products, some mass-gaining should probably help me better, since I have such a bad record of having inregular/insufficient meals. ^ ^;

Yup, I’m pretty much done. My concluding post for 2004. Or make that my first substantial post for 2005. Oh and to all my readers out there, a Happy New Year 2005 to all of you, may all your wishes come true and good blessings with you. Signing out, have a nice weekend ahead everyone!